Let it go

I have written this post three times.

I had meet the teacher tonight.

I can say that I felt completely overwhelmed, reminiscent of when we first moved here and I felt like I was drowning in a sea of noise.

I felt my heart race in my chest, when I realized we are not doing the homework correctly, she is tested EVERY Wednesday on the homework we are not completing it properly. I am not putting her snacks in a proper small bag, therefore she is not allowed to have them on the terrace, which explains why she is ravenous after school.

As I sat there listening and trying to comprehend all the details of her day, I heard a little voice in the back of my mind say, "let it go".

So, I am not going to freak out about this, I don't need all the details. I am going to have a meeting with the teacher, in English, get the basics of what I need to know and let her take it from there. I have family that home schooled children, I understand that want to protect my kids and nurture them, but I also understand the necessity to let them go. So, tonight instead of freaking out about the difficulties my kids face on a daily basis, I am letting it go. I am trusting in my decision that I picked a great school that is no doubt going to push them, but they will excel. They are learning three languages at once and that is no small task.

As I walked home tonight I made a few more resolutions. I will start taking a walk, going for a bike ride or swim everyday, just so that by the time I pick them up, I am of clear mind and ready to be present with them. We will be finding a proper French tutor that does not feed me Port at the end of each day:). Lastly, when we walk in the door after school we are not doing homework straight away. We are taking our shoes off, grabbing a blanket and a snack, cuddling up on the couch and watching a cartoon! We are going to let the day go.