Let it go

I have written this post three times.

I had meet the teacher tonight.

I can say that I felt completely overwhelmed, reminiscent of when we first moved here and I felt like I was drowning in a sea of noise.

I felt my heart race in my chest, when I realized we are not doing the homework correctly, she is tested EVERY Wednesday on the homework we are not completing it properly. I am not putting her snacks in a proper small bag, therefore she is not allowed to have them on the terrace, which explains why she is ravenous after school.

As I sat there listening and trying to comprehend all the details of her day, I heard a little voice in the back of my mind say, "let it go".

So, I am not going to freak out about this, I don't need all the details. I am going to have a meeting with the teacher, in English, get the basics of what I need to know and let her take it from there. I have family that home schooled children, I understand that want to protect my kids and nurture them, but I also understand the necessity to let them go. So, tonight instead of freaking out about the difficulties my kids face on a daily basis, I am letting it go. I am trusting in my decision that I picked a great school that is no doubt going to push them, but they will excel. They are learning three languages at once and that is no small task.

As I walked home tonight I made a few more resolutions. I will start taking a walk, going for a bike ride or swim everyday, just so that by the time I pick them up, I am of clear mind and ready to be present with them. We will be finding a proper French tutor that does not feed me Port at the end of each day:). Lastly, when we walk in the door after school we are not doing homework straight away. We are taking our shoes off, grabbing a blanket and a snack, cuddling up on the couch and watching a cartoon! We are going to let the day go.


Mary said...

Very wise Mommy!!! I think you have the absolute perfect plan. Well done....now go enjoy your babies.

Carol said...

Good for you!!! LOVE that backbone!!!!!


Sari said...

Way to go! Love the attitude. Great plan, those endorphins will brighten your day. Take care & Hugs.

Brandon said...

You are a great mother and wife! You deal with issues I will never be able to understand! I want you to know that the correct decisions have been made and our children are more then strong enough to face these daily challenges.
I love you

Peggy Rice said...

See, this is why I LOVE you guys!

Kim McCaslin Schlieker said...

Good for you, my friend!! I should take your advice as well.

Tricia York said...

Hang in there, sweet girl! I'll be saying a prayer for you and your sweet kids as you "let go." You are such an amazing gal!